Dangled in light.
In my experience, finding God in the daily has so much to do with mindfulness. Paying attention. Allowing present moments to be markers for us — showing us ourselves and perhaps becoming teachers to us, too, and inviting our whole selves to show up in the ordinary moments.
That’s the part of finding God in the daily that invites our part. Our intention. Our activity and presence.
But sometimes it’s just about God.
Sometimes we can let go of the searching and just let God find us as we are.
That’s what happened for me this morning.
I’ve been in a funky place the last several days, perhaps even a week. Carrying around a heavy feeling of sadness that sometimes spirals into a hole of emptiness inside. I look up and realize so many things feel futile and meaningless.
But then I’ll spend time with Jesus and get reconnected to Life. I’ll meet with my spiritual director and feel a vitality of purpose and engagement. I’ll feel hope and strength and courage surge through me.
Only to find myself on the couch later, once again facing down the emptiness.
When I woke this morning with the sadness and emptiness cloaking me yet again, I asked Kirk for a hug and then he offered to pray with me. Through that time of prayer, the invitation emerged to just be in the love of God right now without having to understand this up-and-down roller coaster ride of feelings or know what to do or where to go with them.
Just be in the love of God. Accepted and loved.
I needed that reminder today. Do you?